Dan Totilca
Formless blisters
out of my tongue protrude
as if glass words
are confessed.
My off-plumb
stare shutters
the frontal
mirror with glances dipped in mind-silence
(a philharmonic
reflection of thoughts)
like weapons of
mass-delusion
landing, time
warped into circular waves,
as if the earth
was barren
and the
crepuscule crawled its face.
A picture’s worth
a thousand words,
a gesture’s worth
a thousand pictures
gently, a poem’s
play in pantomime conflicts.
I motion: a
feather’s ink on a goat’s skin
“Let there be
light,” premeditated mind
scaffolding of
thoughts accelerate…
The accident
puzzles out from shivers.
Days play like
piano keys:
One high,
another ⅜ black
3 pitches
redder in tone,
8 in the shake
of a jug of wine
Held by the
renegade hands
Stretched to
pound bones by day
Laying bricks
by night
Folding the
plastic Penguin notes
With tiny
glove kisses
As if chopping
red onions
Classy sounds
soothing the Sun-Days
Deaf sounds
approaching the D-Day
Days that her
hands can chord no more
Days of the
piano keys that no ear
Is soft enough
to hear,
Lips breathing
heavenly…
Unnumbered.
The day you left
Oblique
silhouettes slipped by
Unavailingly into
the void―
Floral graffiti on the bare walls
Odors of ink stepped aimlessly
Onto words...
Out of place
Dull shadows
swallowed paper
―two letter ghosts
Under the fingers
that I long longed for:
Lone statements of the wintry sun
The day you left
―small steps on
the snow path―
Absent handprints
caressed deaf doors
The air―
Softened smells
Like dust in
lighted tears
Lifted deep
stripes of our unflawed sorrow
Angular
rhythms of sunlight beams
A narrow smile―
Your caged
garments mumbled with no fear:
“Well, after all, what’s Love if not
A joint plot
of soiled beggars
Searching for their soul...”
The day you left
A clown consumed
by pigments and fake laughs
All melted off...
So far
Your lips again―
Submerged like
cloudy flowers in
Clear water-diamonds
Black sterile waves reflecting
The fruitless tree bereft of bark
Astray―
Astray?
An ashen seraphim
seen drown in ashes
you circle near
To rescue our love with bow and
arrows...
A needle
Dipped in glands
of salty venom
Amid concern―
That listening to heart
A new life
form could come.
In forested hills
bordering reed-rotten lakes
Where swamps and
marshes dry up in squares
One’s life begins
to wonder,
One’s
life begins to wonder
What’s left to
live in a world that dies?
Birds embracing
A
hole-ridden floating log
Wings kept down like in
A courteous
dance,
Small
rats running in a slime line
Terrified by the incense,
Insecure
Though in an
absolute dependence of bodily pleasures
And
self-interests.
Life in need of
impervious rational-analysis
Here opened to
thrilling vice,
Impotent virtues
Snakes following
their sinuous, shining needs―
Devalued of life when fulfilled.
A little lower
than the angels
A little higher
than the beasts
The
sway of time
In the mills of slaughter
Beheld in the eternal gloom
Of flesh and blood
And born from its
voracious aim
Within and beyond
all things and all ideas,
Though neither a
thing nor an idea.
He lets his eye
through the
mountains
of
hooded rocks
down the valley
through the twin
doors:
crescent moons,
shinning warm
through
intoxicating L-shaped tunnels
holding methane―
faint bombs
through rubbing
worms, unknown colonnades
polls
Cyclop screens
he lets his eye
scoping blind
polyps.
The essential
flesh is peeled mandarins―
Viscous rivers
burst in their skin
with enamored rinds
Boomerang as if
hurled into a paradise dam.
I see through
reeds―the lioness’ mane―mad
Febrile claws
leap graciously
like a saguaro’s smile:
Upward-curving,
funnel-shaped roar and edible
Raphaelite.
Raw-lungs entangles raw-hair―
Volcanic gaze
illuminates my laden swamp, her
well of urge and lust.
The essential
flesh, Light from her lips folder.
In balanced
steps―bellow the sky and the water
the moonlight’s
fingers long walk
calls back the
long gone song:
where are you?
Beyond the tease
the roaming
portrait:
summer clothed, disappearing through
reed,
your bare footed
shriek
skin―wood-cut―like in a red sculpt, yet glowing
“I sense an
angel's halo, halcyon!”
Day in, day
out... Besides what was you
eye & begging
eyes touching
my virtual clock, tick-tock...
The wait lessens
hope as it lasts
waits
scattered memoirs
that I missed...
My solitary arms
are longing for
the looming breast, the tall wings
that caressed
your surrealistic neck.
We are / we're
not... Hear the bells?
You might have
said that I forgot...
Apart,
together―the trickling sand
day in, day out
the sun falls
like a spear.
I am a jailbird
in my own time
my virtual plane―owning the idle
emptiness
in which I
breathe.
Her spirit
nonetheless
was lost
like a flicker in
a forgotten forest...
As I knee in the
stream at dawn
I can reach the
infinity of that foggy May
when heavens lost appeal
and nightmares
like
monstrous
butterflies struggling in the mist of
poisonous pollen
touched her lips
tasting the
unseen departure.
Cathedrals―
plastered over
cannons,
angels
broadcasting their curly heads
over nebulous
shafts,
conjuring
far-off
sketches of
Heaven peaks
mutilated by
the dark beam of the last
dwelling star.
Celestial
snowballs dance
on ice,
illuminating
the bitterly
blurred
chaos at dawn.
Listen! Listen
to
this daybreak
of silence
where nothing
is nearer
though nothing
is seen afar
where
everything is as is―
where the eyes
of mud
slumber deep
in the mouth’s valley
leaving their
tears glistening
through the
fog of words
that will soon
freeze up
at their last
wintry breath
―the lost song
of the elapsed dust.
Listening to
―through the
flaky cellophane―
the white
heron…
A ghostly
mirage
clothed in
crystal plumage
gliding
pristine and
voiceless
in the
pounding whiteness
widen by the
approaching dawn.
The Silverado Highway
The prairies’
saltgrass in the morning sun fall
and rise
higher, to perihelion blue
where the
tongues of the Highway
fuse into the
redemption line,
one orison
stretch from the Lone Star vortex
higher to
Home.
symmetrically
flattened, freckled with:
white dots,
alternating
water towers,
cement towers;
cunning weed
camouflaged in
hay
passing like
fuzz in inequity;
electric power
lines
harmonic sinus
waveforms
a rhythm
fading into the quiet,
with each
pole.
Lonesome
longhorn horseshoe invisible crickets
serenading
atomic stripes of flies.
Out of the
blue,
discerning
sibilant calls, I hear:
lowly bowed
orisons duly paid
on the three
sides of the divide.
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